In general I’m not a very interesting person. I’m not normal by far but there’s nothing that makes me stand out above the rest. My star sign is Taurus and I fit the sign quite well. I’m bull headed and very opinionated but I’m also very affectionate and loyal to those I love. I’m a very honest person and very blunt. I say whatever is on my mind regardless of the consequences. I think truth and honesty is one of the more important aspects of life and it should be something everyone practices. I have lied yes, I’m not saying I’m perfect or anything of the sort but the lies I’ve told have had good or at least slightly logical reasons behind them. They have been used to prevent hurt rather than to deceive.

Something a lot of people don’t know about me is that I am a college dropout. Not by choice mind you, but forced to quit on doctors orders due to illness. I’m the type of person that can’t settle for 100% effort, I have to push myself harder than the rest. If there’s a flaw, I will find it, once found, it will be fixed and the process will be repeated until every detail has been seen to be presented correctly. Normally that’s a good thing, it shows dedication but when you’re in college you already have stress just trying to get your assignments done. Needless to say I pushed just a bit too hard and ended up with a bleeding ulcer and an extreme case of acid reflux.

For a year I kept quiet about my sickness not wanting my dream of being a college graduate to bite the dust. which would have worked if a concerned friend of mine hadn’t of told my mother who dragged me (literally) to the doctor for an examination. I got the expected questions ‘are you bolemic?’, ‘have you ever forced yourself to throw up?’ which really made me mad considering the fact I’d already told them the reason I was there was because I got massively sick every time I ate or drank anything. After repeating the word no to all of their questioning they proceeded to poke and prod me until I was ready to scream.

I stayed sick for two more years. Throwing up almost everything I ate or drank (horrible I know) not knowing what was wrong with me and fearing the worst. My doctor finally sent me to the hospital where I had to endure hours of ultra-sounds and x-rays. Thankfully after all that I’d been through they figured out what was wrong with me. I was prescribed a medication called Protonix which I started taking immediately. For five days I could eat and drink like a normal person.. then it all went to hell. On the fifth day I woke up with my back paralyzed. Apparently I land in the 1% category of those who can’t take protonix for the side effects. For almost a month I couldn’t stand up or walk without help, I spent my entire Christmas season confined to a chair.

A lot has changed since then, I still get sick occasionally but not near as often as I did. To get this way I had to quit smoking, stop drinking coffee and I can no longer eat cooked food. Basically I’m a vegetarian from necessity instead of by choice. I have many, MANY, problems that I deal with but what you’ve just read was the most crippling of them all. I can deal with the depression, insomnia and everything else life throws me. You just have to take it one day at a time…

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‘Dont dismiss the sadness in your eyes; it can be a source of power rather than a source of shame when you own it. Ignore it and it weakens the whole’

-Author Unknown